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Thursday, November 3rd, 2005
2:04 pm
This Is My Life, Rated
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Friday, June 10th, 2005
5:11 pm

Your Brain is 60.00% Female, 40.00% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female

You are both sensitive and savvy

Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed

But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

Monday, February 28th, 2005
12:22 am
"What you think, you create. What you create, you become. What you become, you express. What you express, you experience. What you experience, you are. What you are, you think. The circle is complete."
Thursday, February 3rd, 2005
1:40 pm
mmmmm..... beer......
Hello to all... I know it's been a while since I've updated here, but I felt today would be a good day to do so seeing as how it's... oh I don't know... my... 21st FUCKING BIRTHDAY!!! HAHA! Ah it's great finally being 21... I thought it'd be forever. My brother Eric went and bought beer at about 12:10 AM last night... er this morning... he got me a Coors Light which was sweet. I didn't even think they would sell it to him, but fuck yea. The only thing that sucks is I have to work tonight from 5 to 10... yea... PM... on my goddamn birthday, and not just any birthday, my 21st birthday. But oh well, Katy said she wanted to buy me a drink tonight after I'm off work, so that'll be cool. And I guess the real celebration will have to wait until the weekend. OH and my cousin is taking me and my bros out drinking tomorrow night, which should be interesting. I've never been drunk around any of my family members, but hey she's cool and she'll probably just laugh at us when we start getting tanked. In other big news, Bev and I got engaged about 3 weeks ago... on January 14th to be exact. Very exciting :) We've been doing splendidly overall lately... chillin with Brian and Leah as much as possible. Good times. But unfortunately I just found out 2 days ago that David Lee is moving back to California, for good. I'm really bumming about it, I'm gonna miss him like hell... everyone will. I'm hoping that once Bev and I get a place or if Brian and Leah do that we can get him to move back up here. It'll be a while before that could even be a possibility, but I'm hoping for it. There's been talk of RFNO trying to get going again. In fact David and I tried out a drummer yesterday. It ended up being a disappointment and not what we were hoping for, but there are still a few other prospects. I actually don't even know what's really going to happen with this because Brian told me yesterday that he's having second thoughts about even wanting to get back together. David's totally gung-ho about the whole thing and I'm just kind of in between. But I mean if Brian's not going to be with us, I don't even see the point in going any further with this. It's definitely not going to be RFNO without Brian, so it's basically going to be an entirely different band. And I just don't know if I want to do that. Brian always helped balance things out and if David and I started a new band, I have a good feeling that it's going to be 98% metal. And I need more variety than that. That just won't work for me. Anyway I'm rambling here so, maybe I'll update again in a month or so like usual. Peace.

Current Mood: content
Thursday, December 9th, 2004
1:34 am
Satan's weaving a handbasket....
Dimebag Darrell is dead. I absolutely cannot believe this. One of the greatest metal guitarists of the last 20 years shot and killed during a show. I can't even begin to imagine the kind of person that would do such a thing. Dimebag is one of my all-time favorite guitar players and had a huge influence on my playing. He wrote some of the absolute best metal riffs and solos that I have ever heard. Every metalhead knows the legacy of Pantera. I don't even know where metal would be right now if Pantera had never existed. I still can't believe this actually happened.

There's little to say in an atmosphere of hate
Turbulent times bring fear to light
Trembling hands make the earth shake
Eye for an eye and the whole world's blind
Sign of the times
For thee the bell chimes
A universal consciousness collapses itself
Blue and green mix with the ash
Fights in an alley, not a head turns
Shots fired in the night, innocence purged
Blood spills in your street, and you grab your knife
This suicidal world will never survive
You beat a man to death while your brother watches
Will he not turn and do the same?
You pick up a pipe, so will he
Pay for his high and just let it be
Fists become words and mouths are sewn shut
This sickness spreads with each strike
Is ten minutes of serenity too much too ask?
But each pawn in this war
will only take one step forward.
Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
1:25 am
When one is at home, they dream of adventure; when one is on an adventure, they dream of home.
Saturday, November 13th, 2004
11:39 am

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Saturday, October 16th, 2004
8:02 pm
Hello to all those drifting around in cyberspace. I know it's been a while since I've updated, and I realize that this is usually how my journal entries start out. I just got back from my grandma's funeral about half an hour ago. It was pretty tough. She was a pretty prmominent part of my life. I remember going down to see her a lot throughout most of my childhood, and her dying was a pretty sudden thing. She had to have her leg amputated a little over a week ago. She seemed to be doing pretty well the first few days after the surgery, but then went downhill pretty quickly after that. Several people were crying throughout the ceremony today. My brothers and I were casket bearers and that was pretty intense. I felt myself getting a little choked up at a few points. Right now I just feel kind of emotionally drained. It hasn't exactly been an easy day. I'll definitely miss her. In more unfortunate news, Relent For No One is pretty much done for. We still haven't exactly made it official, but I've talked to both Brian and David, and we're all thinking it's pretty much over. I haven't talked to Andy in weeks, so I still haven't heard his feelings about it firsthand. But Brian has talked to him a few times and told me what he has said. David and I seem to be the only ones that really don't want to see RFNO end. But of course we can't keep it going if Brian and Andy really don't want to. I need to keep playing music because it's what I live for. It's my deepest passion. But at the same time I too had also been wondering how much longer I really wanted to stay in RFNO. Over the past several months I've found myself really wanting to branch out musically and try a lot of new things. And I just didn't really see that happening in Relent For No One. I still love metal and I love playing it, but there are so many other things I want to play too. I want metal to just be part of what I play and not all of what I play. So I'm really hoping I can possibly get another band of some kind going. David said he's definitely still interested in playing. So we might venture out with something else and find some other people who would want to play with us. I'm still not sure if I would want to do that... David and I definitely seem to have similar ideas on what we want to play, but I still think that there are a lot of things I want to do that he might not like. So it's hard to say if I would really be completely fulfilled playing in another band with him. I've been thinking that maybe I just need to find 3 or 4 totally new people to start a project with. I don't know... it's really hard to say at this point what's going to happen. All I know is that I NEED to find some other people to play with, no matter who it is. I just really want to have a lot of freedom with whoever I play with. In no way do I want to be the one telling everyone else to do, but I just want to make sure that I'm able to do all that I want to do. And I do feel that somewhere out there, there are some people who are totally on the same page as I am and who I can really connect with. I'm still going to be great friends with both Brian and David (hopefully Andy too) whether I'm making music with them or not. I don't want that to ever change. So I think that's all for now. Peace
Thursday, October 7th, 2004
4:23 pm
i'm really fucking sexy.
Sunday, September 12th, 2004
11:18 pm
Someone's calling your phone
I just had a GREAT fucking weekend. Bev and I went down to Eugene where Brian and Leah are staying for a week and a half. There kinda house-sitting while Leah's mom is gone. So we got down there about 7 Friday night. David Lee was staying with them too. So of course, the usual routine when all of us are together somewhere for a night, purchased a lot of beer and proceeded to drink it. It was fantastic. That house is so cool. Woke up Saturday morning with a wicked hangover. It basically paralyzed me for most of the day. But by the night, I was ready for round two. Julie brought home a bottle of vodka, so I had several shots of that. I passed out about 2:30 and then had to get up at 9 this morning to make the drive back home so I could get to work by 2. Not fun at all. I had to work until 10 and I'm exhausted. But I would definitely say it was worth it. Very good times. I want to go back down there again, but it's a hell of a drive and I'd have to take my car. And I'd want Bev to come with me but she's got school. Well I think that's about it for now. Sorry this wasn't more interesting. Peace
Thursday, August 19th, 2004
3:50 am
T'was a rock 'n roll creation
OK I know some of you right now are going to think I'm a pathetic loser right now, but no one reads this anyway so it doesn't really matter. I'm drunk again... parents out of town, what else am I supposed to do? I'm having a good time. I was just reading through some of the old emails Bev sent me about 6 and 7 months ago.... mmeeemmorries.... many many memories. I think Brian and Leah just went upstairs to pass out. That sucks... Me and David Lee are the only ones still awake. I'm probably the only one who cares about this but there's nothing I can really do about that. We're watching Spinal Tap again which is cool since I can never get tired of this damn movie. It's so fucking funny, I don't see how anyone could not find it amusing. I have to pee really badly so goodnight. Thank you to all who took the time to read this.
Wednesday, August 18th, 2004
1:09 am
They call me The Seeker
Hello all. I figured this was probably a pretty good time to update. My folks are at the beach right now. I've had about 6 and a half beers. I'm watching American Beauty right now with David Lee. Bev's upstairs passed out, I believe. I think she was upset with me when she went to bed. I feel bad. I'm thinking I'll probably be passing out pretty soon too. Brian and Leah are coming over tomorrow night and I think we're going to be partying again. It'll be a good way to unwind after I get off of work at 11 tomorrow night. Basically the only reason I'm writing this is to get my thoughts out since no one reads this anymore. I suppose it's my own fault... I don't even know why I even have this journal anymore. I may as well just keep my thoughts to myself or just write them down in a regular journal. I've been thinking about just deleting this. It's just taking up room in cyberspace. Anyone who reads this already knows everything that's been happening with me recently so what's the point? I probably won't even get around to actually deleting it since I'm a lazy bitch. I think that's about all I have to say for now. Goodnight.
Wednesday, August 11th, 2004
1:53 pm
I'm bored
1 - Basics
-- Name: Matthew Wieber
-- Birth date: 2/3
-- Birthplace: Portland, OR
-- Current : same
-- Eye Color: greenish?
-- Hair Color: dark brown
-- Height: 5'10''
-- Righty or Lefty: righty
-- Zodiac Sign: aquarius

2 - Next Chapter
-- Your heritage: Germany mostly
-- The shoes you wore today: Vans
-- Your weakness: alcohol
-- Your fears: needles
-- Your perfect pizza: pizza rules
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: a musical career

3 - Me, me, and me
-- Your most overused phrase: fuck yea
-- Your thoughts first waking up: what time is it?
-- Your best physical feature: my clothes
-- Your bedtime: when I fall asleep
-- Your most missed memory: summer of '02

4 - Pick
-- Pepsi or Coke: Coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King
-- Single or group date: neither
-- Adidas or Nike: fuck both of 'em
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: neither
-- Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee

5 - Do you...
-- Smoke: yep
-- What: cigarettes
-- Swear: fuck yea
-- Sing: no
-- Take a shower everyday: most of the time
-- Have a crush: not a crush, a girlfriend
-- Do you think you've been in love: I am
-- Want to go to college/university: already going
-- Like(d) high school: it had ups and downs
-- Want to get married: yes
-- Believe in yourself: I hate this question
-- Get motion sickness: nope
-- Think you're attractive: another stupid question
-- Think you're a health freak: hell no
-- Get along with your parent(s): for the most part
-- Like thunderstorms: definitely
-- Play an instrument: yep

6 - In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: much much alcohol
-- Smoked: yes
-- Done a drug: yes
-- Had Sex: yep
-- Made Out: yep
-- Gone on a date: no
-- Gone to the mall: nope
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no
-- Eaten sushi: no
-- Been on stage: yep
-- Been dumped: No
-- Dumped someone: No
-- Gone skating: no
-- Made homemade cookies: no
-- Gone skinny dipping: no
-- Dyed your hair: No
-- Stolen anything: No

7 - Have you ever:
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: um no
-- If so, was it mixed company:
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: very very intoxicated
-- Been caught "doing something": nope
-- Been called a tease: no
-- Gotten beaten up: not really
-- Shoplifted: yes
-- Changed who you were to fit in: nope

8 - Future
-- Age you hope to be married: 22
-- Numbers and Names of Children: maybe, no names yet
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: too much to type here
-- How do you want to die: in my sleep
-- Where you want to go to college: already going
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: musician
-- Where would you most like to visit: John Petrucci's house

9 - In a girl
-- Best eye color: hazel
-- Best hair color: anything dark
-- Short or long hair: long
-- Height: shit I don't know
-- Best weight: who cares?
-- Best articles of clothing: what kind of questions are these anyway?
-- Best first date location: concert
-- Best first kiss location: same

10 - Numbers
-- # of drugs taken illegally: 2, 3 if you count alcohol
-- # of people I could trust with my life: mmm probably 2, maybe 3
-- # of CDs that I own: somewhere in the vicinity of 75 to 80
-- # of piercings: none
-- # of tattoos: none
-- # of scars on my body: some, I don't know the exact number
-- # of things in my past that I regret: several things
1:14 am
I believe it was a wise man who once said...
.... nah actually it wasn't, it was just me. So yea we had our show at the Solid State on Sunday and it was actually quite awesome. When we first got to the venue we were told we had been bumped to the last spot. Initially when we were asked to do the show we were told we'd be playing first. So of course we were just a bit upset when we found out we were playing last on a 6-band bill. But as it turned out a lot of people actually stayed and we got a good reaction. So fuck yea. Hehe when all of us got back to the apartment after the show, David Lee had formed this gang called The Pretty Snowflakes, which was basically everyone that was at the apartment while we were at the show. They all had their own names and had this rule board posted on David Lee's room door, which he had barricaded shut so there would be no non-gang member intruders. Bev, Marc, and I became members shortly after. Julie and Leah then formed their own gang called the Pink Panthers... of course rivalry started. And to say the least there was a short battle between the two gangs involving sugar water and dirty towels. It was fun even if it sounds lame. And then yesterday was pretty chill. Today was cool. Brian had kind of a birthday celebration at Old Town Pizza. Me, Bev, and Marc all went and there were a bunch of other people there too. Free pizza and soda, hell yes. And here I sit now at home. So there ya have it. Peace.
Friday, August 6th, 2004
1:37 am
Here I go again on my own
Ok so I know it's been forever and a year since I've updated, and for this I apologize. But for those of you whose interest I've managed to hold onto for this long, here you go. Alright so last weekend Bev, Brian, Lean and I took a trip to the beach. It was awesome and I had a great time. We stayed in this really nice rental house in Manzanita, a very cozy, chill place. The weather was just about perfect the whole time we were there. We spent time on the beach, ate, got drunk, played a few games, and built a fire out back. And it was just the four of us for two days and two nights, so we were pretty much free to do whatever the hell we wanted as long as we didn't break anything in the house. We got back Monday afternoon, and then I haven't really been doing much since then.... drinking, spending time with Bev, working, more drinking... Brian Hardie's birthday is this Friday, August 6th, so be sure to wish the man a happy birthday. Oh and then we, the four goofs who are RFNO, have a show this Sunday at the Solid State. Please come out if you can, it's gonna be sweet. We're playing with Travis Noble's side project and promoter Tony's band. And according to David The Acacia Strain is also playing which I'm very excited about. So yea summmer's been goin pretty damn good, lots o' cool shit, relaxing fun times. I'm trying to think of anything I've overlooked here.. it's hard to look back on the whole last month and try to remember all that happened. I think this is mostly all of the interesting stuff. Bev's staying the night here at my house tonight. I have to work at 10 in the morning which really sucks. Ugh... Oh yea, supposedly we're going to be getting some free recording time. I guess this guy who runs an indie label called Blackstar Records emailed Katy saying that he wants to record us for free, with unlimited time too. God I hope this is for real, I've been itching to record again for so long. And it would be great to get a good solid recording of several songs for free. Hell yes. So I think I'll end this here. Hopefully I'll update again before a whole month passes. Goodnight. I love you Bev.
Tuesday, June 29th, 2004
3:36 am
Alright so I'm finally updating again, so enjoy. Sittin here at the computer, 3:20 in the morning, not even close to being ready to sleep. My sleeping schedule is totally out of whack.. it'd work perfectly for someone working graveyard shifts. Bev's over here at my house, spending the night. She's asleep on the couch behind me. I wish she'd wake up and keep me company, but alas she actually has a somewhat normal sleep-schedule. Josh from Hotboxed just sent me the unmastered version of one of the new songs they recorded. I must say godDAMN! It already sounds so unbelievably good... I can't believe they still have more mixing AND mastering to do... I can't even imagine what the finished product will sound like. It will be a truly professional sounding recording. I really want to spend some time with Bev right now, but I don't want to wake her up. I already tried that about half an hour ago, I'll tell ya she's a pretty heavy sleeper, and she didn't seem to happy about being woken up. Well at least she'll be here when I wake up tomorrow. It's a wonderful thing waking up to your love sitting next to you. I guess there's been a lot going on lately, just lots of summer enjoyment. I've been partying way too much lately, I really need to cut back a bit. The summmer is definitely time for fun, but I need to keep it within reason and find better things to occupy my time with. I don't want partying to be my only recreational activity. I wish I had more hobbies, but there just isn't much that interests me. When I'm sitting around not doing anything, all I want to do is play my guitar or listen to music. All I want to do is something music-related. It's the only fuel that keeps me going. Music and Bev... that's all I need to keep going. I'm sorry if you think that's sad or something, but it's what makes me happy alright??? Sorry.. anyway, I'm done typing and I can talk about other things later, so you have now reached the end.

Current Mood: awake
Thursday, June 3rd, 2004
2:45 am
Grrrr... I"m restless. I should be going to bed, getting rest... but I feel like I need to do something. I don't want to fucking sleep. This day felt way too short, it doesn't feel like it should be over yet. But what can you do at 2:41 in the morning? Smoke.... done that already at least 3 times in the last hour or 2... I'm not that hungry and nothing we have here sounds that good... AHH what am I to do?? I wish Bev was here, or at least awake and online so I could talk to her. Well there's not much else to say here... I just needed something to temporarily keep me busy. Hope everyone is sleeping well.
12:48 am
Ok so one more thing I wanted to go off about was "the apartment." This is the place where I have been spending about 85 to 90 percent of my time for the last 3 or 4 months. It's the residence of David Lee, Damien, Brian, Leah, David King, and Katy. 6 people living in a 2-bedroom apartment... yea, enough said. It really is quite a stressful situation for everyone there and anyone who's spent a fair amount of time there knows this. I don't blame them at all for getting frustrated with each other and getting mad over things that are trivial. I don't even live there and I've felt the wrath of bad vibes there. I won't go into too much detail because I don't want to offend anyone. It just sucks that they have to live like that. I've been wanting to move out for so long, but I think I'd rather live at home than in a situation like that. I wouldn't be able to take it if I was living somewhere that caused me to get mad at my best friends. I love the people there and I enjoy hanging out with them. But I just can't stand always sitting around there feeling like a waste of space. I need to get out and DO things. It's always good to chill and relax ya know, but not ALL day everyday. I know there's nothing they can really do about it, it's not their fault that there's not a lot to do there. I just wish there was something I could do to spice things up and maybe lift everyone's gloomy mood a bit. It can get depressing around there sometimes. Brian and I had a long discussion about this last week or maybe the week before. I found out he felt pretty much exactly the same way as I did, but even more strongly. And I don't blame him at all.. he and Leah have it the hardest there in my opinion. They don't even have their own room and never get any privacy. They've really been trying hard to get jobs for months. I think they finally got something up at Ski Bowl which is awesome. I hope they won't feel so discouraged anymore and feel proud for themselves. But yea they're always cool to everyone there. They're very laid-back and I always enjoy my time there more when it's just them and me kickin it. David Lee's fucking awesome too. If he wasn't there... man I really think everyone would be horribly depressed all the time. He's always there to make people laugh and keep the good vibes flowing. And he's one of the most dependable people I've ever met. He's a true, good friend. I'm actually looking forward to their lease being up at the end of the summer. I think it'll be really good for all of them to get their own space and have some time apart. Hopefully things can go back to how they used to be. I remember the summer after senior year... everything was so great. Nobody getting pissed off, no one feeling down or frustrated... just everyone having a good time and enjoying themselves. Although change is a natural part of life, so of course it wouldn't last forever. But anyway, yea life's been pretty fuckin good for me lately. Not much I can complain about. Really the only thing was last week I was talking to Bev about how it's starting to feel like my life is becoming one big routine. I started feeling like there weren't anymore surprises anymore. I started feeling like everyday was turning into this: wake up and go to class if I have it that day, come home maybe take a nap, most likely go over to apartment to meet the guys for band practice, drive out to Andy's house, practice for a few hours, drive back to the apartment, then maybe get to see Bev for a couple hours, and that's my day. It just seemed like the same thing over and over. I started feeling a little guilty because I found myself hating band practice because I never had time to spend with Bev. I hate only getting to see her 3, maybe 4 times a week. And one or two of those times may be only for a couple hours. I really want to spend more time with her, but I also don't want to neglect the band too much. I love playing in RFNO, I love it. I love making music and playing it. It's my passion and my drive. But when we're practicing 3 or 4 times a week, it doesn't leave me a lot of time for anything else. And I hate having to drive for 45 minutes 2 ways every time we practice. It's really a long drive and it's gotten to the point where it's almost depressing driving out there. I really do enjoy practicing, I just can't stand what we have to do to be able to practice. I really REALLY wish we could find somewhere else to practice, somewhere that's closer to all of us. I really want Andy to move closer to Portland, if not actually to Portland. I'd like to move closer to east Portland too. I just don't know where we'd practice if Andy moves out. We've been talking about getting a storage space, but of course that's money out of all of our pockets. And what if someone ends up getting their hours cut at work or something and we can't make the payment? Then we're fucked and have nowhere to practice. Man growing up really sucks. At least the path to becoming a grown-up sucks. Those 2 or 3 years after high school.. ugh.. not easy at all. Wow this post is really fucking long too. Now if I don't get more traffic for all of this, I may just give up. But then again it's nice to have a place to go off about things and get your thoughts out. And even though a keyboard can also take it's toll on your fingers and wrists, I find it less painful than writing. If I wrote down all of this and the last entry on paper, who knows if I would still have a functioning right hand. I've been sitting here for over an hour I think, just typing away in this journal. I should get a gold star or some bonus points for this, don't you think? Well, I've really done some rambling here... I think that's mostly all I've been thinking about lately. Even if there is more I suppose I should stop here before your eyes fall out or you lose your vision altogether. Thank you to all who take the time to read all of this, believe me I know it will be a sufficient chunk of time. Once again, please excuse any typos. I hope they're minimal so it all still makes sense... well.. that is, if it even did to begin with. Peace and sleep well.
12:14 am
Alright so I'm really going to try to start updating this thing more often. The main reason I don't is because I'm really not home very much anymore, and home is the only place I can really have internet time. But I'm home now so here's an update. Today was so awesome. The weather was beautiful and my beautiful Beverly came over to my house. We bought cigarettes, went to Dairy Queen, hung out and smoked over at my old grade school, and I had a wonderful wonderful time. Unfortunately she had to leave at 9 and her mom wouldn't let me go back to her house. So I only got to spend about 3 and a half hours with her. It was very saddening watching her pull out of my driveway and take off... it felt like she had just arrived at my house half an hour before and she was already leaving. I hate when that happens... and it's mostly when we have band practice. We'll go have practice and then we won't get back usually until almost 9, or sometimes later. Then I have a little time to go over and see Bev for a while, but never more than two hours or so. Every time I see her, I just want to spend the next week or 2 straight with her, no separation. It sucks when I only get to see her for a few hours at a time. I mean you can't have just 2 or 3 Lay's potato chips, you need at least half a bag. With Bev I need about 5 whole bags before I can even begin to feel satisfied. I need a whole shelf from a grocery store. I really hope we can spend tons more time together in the summer. We'll both have more free time, and hopefully her folks will be more lenient with curfew. I love her so dearly. So so dearly... I was jammin on my guitar today, for about 2 and half hours stright. I think I got some pretty cool material going that hopefully we can use in our next song. Ah it's such a release to sit down and just play and play and play.. it never gets old. Of course you have to take the occasional break to give your hands a rest. After the first hour and half my wrist muscles started burning. But what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I know some people are probably rolling their eyes at that last remark but hey... it seemed to fit right there. And hey I can always use more comments, even if it's telling me I suck or have serious problems with aluminum. I need traffic! I love Dream Theater and I worship John Petrucci. I know most of you already know this but I'm hoping that sentence will catch the eye of a fellow DT fan so he'll commment on this entry telling me I'm cool because I'm into Dream Theater. Oh and I LOVE Porcupine Tree. I need to meet some Porcupine Tree fans. C'mon I know you're out there.. I'm not the only dude with them in my interests list. At this point I would usually look back on everything I had typed and bring it to a hault, seeing as it has grown to quite a length... but I say out with the old and in with the new. The ways of the past are history!! So I'm going to give all of your eyes a bit of a workout and I'm gonna keep rambling while the thoughts are still swimming. YES.. Family Guy's on. Fucking fabulous show... SO goddamn funny!! Sometimes I see a little too many similarities to The Simpsons, but I figure that's why it's so funny. So much of the humor reminds me a lot of the randomness that is the genius behind the Simpsons. I don't see it so much as the creators of Family Guy ripping of The Simpsons, but more the Family Guy dudes carrying on the torch of great comedy. When Bev was over today we were talking to Marc about his current love-life situation. I won't get into any personal details, but for those of you who don't know, my brother has been totally infatuated with this girl Jessica for the last.. probably 2 months or so. And I started to realize that Jessica didn't seem too interested in a relationship. I never sat down and really talked to her about it, but that's the feeling I got. Marc's been trying his hardest to hang out with her more and build a relationship. I deathly afraid that's he's going to end up getting hurt and completely let-down and disappointed. So Bev and I tried to kind of put things in perspective and cheer him up a bit. We told him to not put to much pressure on himself with Jessica and keep his options open. I really want him to continue to meet other girls and not just focus on the first one he likes. And I really think there's someone out there much better for him than Jessica (no offense to her). And I mean she's moving to Colorado in August anyway. I really hope everything works out for the best for him. I really wish he could get over Jessica and move on, but I know how it goes when you really really like someone and you keep hanging onto a fine strand of hope that maybe something will happen. I just want Marc to meet a girl that will really treat him well and give him the time and respect he deserves. Everyone who knows Marc knows how awesome of a dude he is. I know someone out there will realize this and grow to like him. Cuz I love the guy, he's my definition of what a good brother should be. He's always helped me out with stuff. And when we started high school, he and I always hung out before we had any friends. Hell, we were in a band together for 3 years, and those were such great times. If Revile had actually started going somewhere and we had been playing more of the style of what I was wanting to do, I wouldn't have quit. Really the reason that I left Revile was because RFNO was playing the music I wanted to play, and Ben (my old friend and bandmate) wasn't so much into that style. I still feel bad about leaving Marc without a band. I really wish there was a way to still be in a band with him... I mean we could even jam a little bit sometime. I think I'll ask him about that. But yea, Marc's really been having a rough time emotionally for the last year and I really want to help him. I really hope things improve drastically over the next 6 months or so. Let's see what else can I go on about... wow this is really getting long, hell yes. Must be the longest one I've ever written. I hope everyone will enjoy this since I don't talk about this kind of stuff very often. There's more I can go on about but I'm wondering if maybe I should save it for my next post since I just unloaded so much on everyone. Ok I'll continue in another post so you can take a reading break. Please excuse any typos in here, I'm sure there are plenty but I really don't want to go back through all of this to find them all.

Current Mood: awake
Wednesday, May 26th, 2004
2:05 pm
Go my children...

This is my new obsession. You should give 'em a listen...all 3 or 4 of you.. because they fucking own. Assignments for the day: listen to Porcupine Tree or anything that John Petrucci plays on. Peace
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